4.30.06

I can explain all of your every single mysteries. It is, I mean, it's not a fact; but to you, it might make sense. Anyways, let's just play together, before you tell me why. I don't want you to feel bad, though. You will tell me why.. right? Right. Let's swing.


.: When I was about four, I rode my trike into a rose bush. I was bleeding. It was red. Mom came to me. She saved me. I love you.

Four years later, I ran down the road. We live on a hill. I tripped and skidded on my knees and elbows and shoulder until I came to a stop. They all bled a lot. It was red again. Mom and Dad patched me up. I like Neosporin. Thank you.

Thirteen years.. I rode a skateboard into a table; built-in benches and all. My shin didn't make it. There was no red.. there was pink, and there was white. I didn't tell Mom or Dad. It didn't really hurt or anything; no need to make you worry. I still love you.

I guess sometimes we're just so real and so true and so human when we're hurt. We don't have to be hurt for it, we really don't :.


I can explain all of our every single mysteries. It is, I mean, it's not really a fact; but to you, it might make sense. Anyways, let's just play together, before you tell me why. Right, let's swing.

4.26.06

It's such a pretty picture. Let me tell you about it.

There is a bed and little christmas lights. They're quiet. Dim. The music is warm, draped with a blanket; hugging a pillow, gently. When you didn't think you'd ever get to sleep, that song comes on. You smile. You smile.

4.16.06

Solitaire. Such a lonely game.

"I cried."
Faint, beneath his breath, he told me.
"I cried, just to be human again."

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1. I believe in myself.
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2. I can love another as I love myself : True.
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3. My mind is very colourful.

4.11.06

My sweatshirt held that familiar scent, the other day. I was in my math class, half asleep. All I could do was smile.

I do, somewhat, remember our first conversation; it was online. You were different back then, as of I; quite a bit younger, both in body and spirit. You said you listened to emo rock, and some rap. You liked going to the beach to relax and watch the boys surf. I stopped surfing a while back, and remember feeling a little disappointed when you said that.

I love my pet fish. He's a nice fish; a clean fish. Sometimes when I sing to him, he dances a Tango. He's a nice fish. I like to watch movies with him by my side. He's a clean fish. Thank you, my friend fish, for painting such a magical picture for me. I love you. You're a nice fish; a clean fish.

4.6.06

I live in a dream, now..

If I am dreaming, don't ever wake me up.
I'll never let you go.
I won't wake; not yet.